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LD count since June 10th, 2008: 2

DILD count = 2

X = Done it.
- = Status pending.
+ = Working on it.

General goals:

[+] Better dream recall.

Dream goals/ideas:

[-] Flying
[-] Running through the forest
[-] Teleporting.
[-] Summoning an object.
[-] Stepping through a mirror.
[-] Swimming.
[-] Morphing into an animal.
[-] Flying as a bird.
[-] Meet my spirit and/or dream guide(s).
[-] Sing in front of an audience.
[-] Control the weather.
[-] Dream share.
[-] Make my own place I can come back to.
[-] Have my cats appear.
[-] Own a dream dog since I can't have one in RL.
[-] Have some kind of sexual encounter.
[-] Shout something at the top of my lungs.
[-] Something to do with wings.
[-] Dance in the rain.
[-] Watch TV.
[-] Imagine myself as an Animal Cop.
[-] Something to do with Wicca.
[-] Dream name.
[-] Find a deck of Tarot cards, pull a card and remember what it is when I wake up.

Odd ideas:

[-] Involve DCs in lots of hijinks (one being: fly one around like Superman would do).
[-] Burn incense, see if I can smell it.
[-] Bake desserts all I want.
[-] Fandom ideas - too many to mention until I know more about LD.
[-] Go 'forward' in time.
[-] Train DC(s) to remind me to do reality checks. (This depends on if I can't do it on my own.)

Tasks of the Month:

[-] Genderswitch
[-] Have a dream in black and white.
[-] OBE type experience
[-] Read something.
[-] Write something. (actually did this one, but I want to try again)

September 05, 2008

Just Keep Running [10:50 a.m.]
I had a baseball and was running with it for a long time. People (some in school informs, mostly if not all girls) were chasing after me, trying to get the ball back I think, like it was some precious item. At some point, one girl was chasing me in a parking lot. The ball rolls away from me, the girl picks it up and throws it hard. I see it goes flying into some bushes (and it's suddenly dark out), and I'm really worried I won't be able to get it. I run after it worriedly. I can't lose it, because it's 'that person's' and I like and/or respect them, so I don't want them upset at me.

(gap~) I'm returning home, and apparently the running around was a ruse in order to steal an earring or something like that. Mom is in the bathroom 'listening' to knitting patterns and she doesn't seem worried about what'd gone on. She asks if I got any needles or hooks in my little stack, but she knows I didn't because I had set out to get/steal specific items.

Scene that might've come before returning home: I race around to the back of my old house (130 Renee Lane, not our second house, which was 134), and there are two children there, or one in the doorway or something. I run and and lock the doorway behind me, but look out and realize there's still one out there - a little boy with blonde hair, and he's crying. The other one had dark hair and was older. So I rush back out, grab him and get back inside.

I remember seeing that dad was sleeping in his and mom's room.

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I was actually trying for an LD last night because I wanted to complete the Basic Task of the Month at DV. I wonder if that's why I ran around back of my old house, because there's a large creak back there...

September 04, 2008

10 a.m.

Dream 1: Me, Rachel and Matt/Melissa (at first it's Melissa, which turns into Matt later) are riding really tall bikes through a large field. In the beginning of the dream, someone tells us that there's a deer under a bridge or something and we use that as an excuse to go. I remember there being many track marks from the bikes in the field, and also that I had a hard time getting my butt on the seat but managed it at some point. I also remember Matt saying something about videotaping or photographing me, I can't remember why, but I say that I'm not cute - he kind of laughs and I realize he thinks I am.

Notes to self: Another field dream as well as bikes. Consider adding family in TN as dream signs as well as those.

Dream 2: The main character is in the military, and he's being seriously 'bullied' by this other guy (and the leader/Sergeant knows but doesn't do anything). It reminds me of how Wolf treated Cub (Alex) in the book Stormbreaker, except worse here. The main char doesn't tell anyone about it, just takes it the best he can. (later) A woman (with short, dark hair and wearing a smile) comes to see him - she has a large white shirt with black text on it that says "I LOVE YOU". He knows her and walks towards her, but soon realizes that something isn't right. The second she makes a suspicious move, he backflips away from her and crouches down, using something to block some poison shuriken type things she throws out. I remember that the guy was worried about his comrades, who were sitting at a table behind playing cards or something. (gap) The main char delicately handles a poisoned shuriken and puts it in this little device held by a professional or something, to analyze it.

Fragment: A guy brings flowers to the/a house, and they're for a guy who I apparently know and who lives there with me/others. We smell them and I ask what kind of flower a small one is, pink and still budding. I don't remember his reply, but I think he was annoyed with me because he wanted to talk to the other guy, who'd already left.

September 02, 2008

Fragment [5 & 11 a.m.]
There was a large building, and for some reason I thought of it as The Sims 2-like. At some point, I'm in a classroom with some classmates and our teacher, and we're talking about this guy, my close friend, who was in our class. He is now in a 'sports' class because he wanted to get into sports, but something isn't working out for him and we talk about how to get him back. We were pretty excited about it.

I know a lot more happened, but I only get glimpses that I can't quite hold on to!

So I had zero dream recall yesterday morning. I did VILD again, and I'm going to do it again tonight. I think my bad recall was because I'm trying to get my schedule back, and it's taking a bit of a toll on me.

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September 01, 2008

Beevus Visits [10 a.m.]
Two of Rachel's email buddies come over, a guy and a girl. Before they arrive, Rachel is worried that the girl is going to be really old. When the boy arrives, I lead him into our apparently shared room. As we walk in, I say that I'm going to have an ulcer (from the stress of so many new people coming in). This is odd, because I also remember the boy coming in as me and Rachel are in our room, with me naming off characters on some DC/Marvel Comics posters on the wall (I specifically remember naming Robin). He seems to be a good fan of comics as well.

It turns out that the girl is his little sister, and he won't stay if he has to take care of her. Basically, she'd be our responsibility. When Rachel asks his name, he says that he's "Beevus". Rachel jokes then she's "Butthead". I remember wondering if Beevus was really was his name.

Later (gap), Rachel comes in pretty much frantically searching for a bathing suit she knows she has/saw with Black Cat (Marvel Comics) on it. I take out a bathing suit of mine is some bright color with Black Cat on it and show her it and say I haven't seen hers. She does eventually find it and leaves the room with it.

Notes: I kind of feel this takes place on Sliger Road (TN), but I didn't have posters like that there and we had a wall thing separating the room. And the dresser was in a different spot, and we didn't share one. Also, Rachel is OOC in this - she wouldn't care how old her penpal is. As well, she'd know both their names and ages before they came over.

Delete [10 a.m.]
I have some kind of story/paper about someone, a guy that is with me. We must have been partners, because I think I'm the one who wrote it having witnessed the events (?). We go to this creepy building (ghosts? people with powers).

(At some point) I delete the first few lines because I'm embarrassed for him to see (in real life I'm still trying to figure out why I'd be embarrassed), but "Undo" because I realize it's dumb and I don't want to delete it.

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I think I was right about the schedule thing. I was too tired to write down my dream at 5 a.m and I don't remember waking up again. So basically I need to wait 'til my body has adjusted.

Also, I wonder if I should start bolding old places and my sister now, because I'm having a a lot of dreams about them lately.

I'm trying the VILD technique tonight. It seems easy and fun, and I hope it'll yield results. If not tonight, I'm going to keep at it for a while because my recall is still developing anyway, and it's not like the first time is always the charm. That's actually rare, for me anyway, soooo. Here we go!

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August 30, 2008

Keyword [11 a.m.]
Eroica. This is the dream from the first time I woke up, but I didn't write it down. I woke up a second time, remembered this one but didn't write it down...again.

Fragment 1 [11 a.m.]
Two different gay couples having sex.

Fragment 2 [11 a.m.]
Itachi and Sasuke (from Naruto) in the modern world - Sasuke jumps out of a building window.

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How's that for some sucky recall? I attribute it to a few different things: going to bed having to use the bathroom, with horrible cramps and very, very tired. I had to listen to my meditation CD twice because my mind was going too much. By then I was very ready to snooze, so I slept deep.

I'm sad about the bad recall, but something did come out of the night.

I'd been thinking/reading about HI and SP on DV, and while I was listening to my CD the first time around last night, I remembered this other CD I have. I used to listen to it more often, but now I realize the strange things that happened back then when I did. Twice, towards the end where the narrator has you rock back and forth in the hammock on the beach, I suddenly felt like I was floating in midair - once at an angle, like I was tied down to something, and the other flat on my back (probably my mattress). The CD only lasts 28 minutes, but I'm thinking of having it repeat so it'll be longer. The track is called "Hypnosis & Relaxation - Deep Sleep Meditation" and is for falling asleep, but I always liked the really relaxed feel it gave me and it's a great way to relax for a long time without getting bored.

So I'll try that some other time, definitely. If anyone wants me to upload it, I will. It has a very great narrator and wonderful visualizations (the end setting is a beach and forest, ending in a hammock that rocks you to sleep).

August 29, 2008

Robot Lawyer [6 a.m.]
A robot (more A.I.) who just became a lawyer was talking to a bad guy in this building with some empty display cases.

Save the Squirrels [6 a.m.]

Matt drove an airplane over a field (I seriously have deja vu when I think about running in a field - might have had a running in field dream before), which I was running in. I saw paralyzed or dead squirrels on the ground. I get the feeling it was Matt who'd done it, and I got on the plane with him and he says something about it.

I Wanna Yaoi You Up [11:20 a.m.]

It started outside. I think we were going to play a game, but I was sunburned and needed to put on some sunscreen; I went inside. For some reason, I was naked and hiding behind the front door, and I realize now the dream takes place in my thrice old house on Renee Lane (in Tennessee). Dad comes in and I think he just laughs, making some joke before moving on.

Next I'm in the bathroom looking for the sunscreen in the cabinet. I can't find it at first and get angry that mom might have it, when it's supposed to be mine. Next thing I know, I'm not me anymore and I'm not the really the guy I change into. The guy has short brown hair falling just under his ears - it's a little bit wavy (and he's uke type). He's not in the bathroom, I don't think, but maybe in a room, and there's another guy there (obviously a seme type). He tells the guy he looks cute with a red face. The uke tries to leave, but the seme grabs his arm and the next thing, they are having sex. Typical yaoi manga. *laugh* It was definitely like the two knew each other, but maybe not all that well.

Snippet [11:20 a.m.]

Me and my sister, Rachel, are either in our old bedroom on Renee Lane, or the one on Sliger Road in Tennessee. I turn over this board, and the other side is black with yellow chalk or marker writing on it. I ask Rachel if she remembers it, but she doesn't. It's a message I'd written to her some time before - she'd written me one to, but I didn't know where it was.

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Used the BrainFlooder again last night, no remembered results. I think I'm just going to go and try other techniques - reading up on VILD at the moment.

Second robot dream, and these 'old house/people/places' dreams are freaking me out. They're like, the least important things in my life, or things I never think about.

Also, I'm so happy that I'm remembering so many dreams, even with some gaps and fragments here and there. XD

Used the BrainFlooder again, only 50ms instead of 75, about 30 minutes instead of 10, and put more pictures in.

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August 28, 2008
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Mistake [4:12 a.m.]
A girl often visits this man in his house/office. At first, she makes a mistake about him, something to do with dogs (him abusing them or some such).

Stop Trek [9:20 a.m.]
I think me, Rachel and Melissa are at grandma's house (in Tennessee). Rachel wants to go somewhere (she's very insistant) in mom's van. It's very dark and I'm worried about using mom's van without permission. For some reason, I divide two keys up and give one each to Rachel and Melissa. We're going to drive down to the creek...but the car starts rolling down the drive (which is a long gravel hill) and I'm rushing to find the key for the engine. I find it just in time, and Rachel gets it in the engine and applies the breaks just inches from the edge where the drive meets yard and beyond.

Before we can go, mom, grandma and grandpa appear on the balcony and call out to us. We get out and mom tells us about a criminal on the loose in the neighbourhood. I remember grandpa teasing me in his usual way and hugging me.

I didn't feel scared (and creeped out a bit) until after the dream.

Notes: There is low balcony on the front of the house lik in my dream, though there's one up higher and to the right. Also, the creek down and back into the yard, and very big. And probably freakin' scary in the dark.

Special [11:17 a.m.]

Mom went off somewhere, leaving me and a toddler Melissa in her van, which is on auto-pilot. Eventually, it messes up and I'm worried we're going to get into an accident. I think we're on the highway, and there are big vans everywhere. I try to apply the breaks, but it takes forever for us to stop. My feet are clamped down on the break when the van in front of us stops, shouting out to us. I remember leaning out, holding onto Melissa and hoping someone could see us and help. The people in the van say "you have _?_". They leave.

I get us home then by driving really slow. Mom tells me that "she must have got it from my brother's side". It was Melissa who had the 'thing'. It involves hands, I remember. Some kind of special skill? And I believe Melissa said something in the van to me about the situation with the van, but I don't remember what it could have been.

Notes: Melissa is an adult in RL, and mom doesn't have any brothers. Melissa is her sister.

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So I didn't have any Naruto dreams again. I'm not sure whether to keep trying or not.

It's really weird that I've been having dreams of my grandma's house, though. o_O

I downloaded the BrainFlooder from a user of DreamViews and watched it - default settings for 10min, my Bishounen > Naruto images. After about 5 minutes I felt like I was floating and other weird sensations - even now, I feel...off, floating - something...very weird sensation!

I hope this'll work - it was so beautiful, almost like a film. The Akatsuki images really provoked images in my mind. Here goes! *sleeps*

August 27, 2008
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Loyalty [2 a.m.]
A thief and his partner - the thief gets caught and tries to keep his partner out of it.

Loyalty Continuation [4:23 a.m.]
The capturers wouldn't believe them and the thief+partner turned into Sherlock Holmes and John Watson.

Just the Two of Us [5:45 a.m.]
About Riley and me years from now. I remembering thinking "ten years from now? what will Riley look like then"? etc.

B.F.F. [5:45 a.m.]
Like a fanfic - two Harry Potter type characters end up having sex (implied). Involved phonecalls (+ some kind of trick or something) and a side character reassuring his friend that he doesn't care he's gay - he's been friends with him all this time, he won't stop because of that.

Sacred Ground [11 a.m.]
I'm wandering the streets, and eventually step inside a food place. I remember wanting Chinese and seeing a place, but I didn't go in that one for some reason. I try to get some food out of a vendor - chicken, potato wedges and a drink, but the potato wedges won't come out. After a while, I get really mad, and a woman informs me that the machine messes up like that. I leave.

For some reason, my clothes are ragged or I'm naked or something and end up in a building with clothes. There are two women (and a man, I think). The first women to step forward and help is a lesbian - she teases me a bit but takes me around to pick some clothes, along with the other woman, who I find out is her partner.

Later (after a big gap), I'm at this secret (sacred?) place with a man, who I think I had sex with. *more gaps*

At the end, I'm asked (?) to leave, and the last thing I did was masturbate. It was this really fantasy like room with little waterfalls and stuff - it was like some kind of ritual, the whole thing. As I leave, the guy sort of nods to me.

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As you can see, I didn't have one Naruto dream! I definitely had some weird shit happen, but nothing I'd attribute to the BrainFlooder. I'm going to try watching it for 30min. next time and maybe even fast ms (milliseconds).

On to the weird stuff:

I woke up quite a bit throughout the night/morning, and every single time I would start having these flashes or snippets run through my head. It was like I was dreaming, only I was awake (albeit sleepy). I've read of other people having this happen, so I think it's pretty normal - it's just the quantity of it was freaky. At one time I had four or five after another happen every time I acknowledged it, opened my eyes and closed them again. I do recall having a few other solid dreams slip out of my grasp trying to remember them - one was a girl standing in dusty, dry mud running from something.

I attribute the weirdness to excitement.

Also, I think this is the first time I've ever dreamt (that I remember) a continuation of a previous dream ("Loyalty"). Very cool.

I'm thinking about adding a color to show my dreamsigns, but I'm not sure if I should highlight all fandom mentions (Naruto, Doctor Who, a character etc) or what. Because fandom stuff is definitely a dream sign.

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August 19, 2008

Fragment 1: This one makes no sense, but; 'Eroica wear and donate'.

Fragment 2: More Eroica

Note: From the manga 'From Eroica With Love'.


August 2?, 2008

Fragment Keywords 1: Marvel, DC, library, there were two Tarot decks, Hannah (from my old school) helped me shuffle

Keyword: Elf x Boy

Fragment Keywords 2: Masturbation, Sarah, toothbrushes (one broken in the bathroom)

Fragment Keywords 3: Me, Rachel, some little device, _?_ (maybe 'pricked'), dial let out air


August 23, 2008

Fragment/Keywords: Tiny stolen coin, James look alike in real life, look for real life Naruto. Grandma, Melissa, Jewelry everywhere.

Note: James is from From Eroica With Love and a huge penny-pincher, always looking for stray coins on the ground.


August 24, 2008

Keywords 1: Clay fingers

Keywords 2: Dolls, secret

Fragment: A group, something about hiding

Fragment 2: Dad, mom and I took mom's stack of Redwall books from her bookshelf, put them in dad's car and drove. Along the way we stopped to either try out or sell some cakes.


August 25, 2008

Dream 1: I was in some kind of castle or tower, and there was a (I think cursed) boy there, sleeping on a bed. There was also a little black flying cat with wings that seemed to be the boy's familiar. Something was wrong with the cat too, and I leaned over the boy to lay the cat down at the end of the bed beside the boy. I vividly remember the feel of my upper body touching his legs. It was surprisingly warm, and like I hadn't touched anyone in so long that even touching his legs was nice. It was very interesting. (I'm a a big toucher/cuddler in RL and have been feeling lately that I miss it.)

Dream 2: I'm in my old school lunchroom, there's not many people there. Maybe just me and Anda. Anda is getting scolded by the lunchroom lady for, I think, holding a place for her friend or something close to that. The main thing for lunch was Mashed Potatoes - and there was one other thing.

Fragment: I was at my grandma's house (I've had this setting before in one or more dreams) in Tennessee. I walk out that back down and dropped something onto the carport. It crashes and crashes into a large glass bottle. I told the people with me that it was okay.

August 26, 2008

Keywords: Seme and uke in a yaoi manga, the Joker (from Batman)

Dream 1: I'm sitting down with some people (two sisters, Conrad, possibly Leigh as well). We have 'collector's cards' out and are looking through them. I decide to go through mine and see if anyone wants some. I manage to find one Conrad wants (from some anime - it's a girl) and give it to him. I then get to a some animal cards (specifically, dogs) and ask if the sisters want some. I then start spreading them out on the floor and tell them they can have five. Then I realize that there actually weren't that many, so I say 'four' instead. They thought I meant before that they got five in all, between the both of them, so they'd only three (which doesn't make sense, but it did then). So they each reach down to pick another. I remember two of the cards - one dog wasn't all that pretty and I wondered if anyone had picked it. Another was of a cute puppy. They were both brown, though I don't know what breed.

Dream 2: I'm at a party, and this guy comes up and invites me to drink with his friends. I tell him I've never drunk before (lol and I'm still 19 in this dream so couldn't drink anyway), but I go to ask my mom if I can just a sip. Mom says no, of course (why I ever thought she'd let me is a mystery to me now). By the time I turn back, the guy has left.

Old Dream Fragment: I remembered an old dream I had when reading Stormbreaker last night. The setting was a place like the Coal Mines in the MMORPG Ragnarok Online. I was in a group of teenagers trying to get out - it was like a maze, and very dark.

August 11, 2008

Keyword 1: Koyuki

Note: A couple days ago I saw a Naruto movie on and realized that the girl it's about; her name is Koyuki. I hadn't seen the movie in a while on the 11th though.

Keyword 2: Some pairing

Fragment: Inuyasha dream.


August 12, 2008

Fragment 1: Super-powered Naruto, modern world

Fragment 2: A store, me with hair down and dyed pink, a mom and baby

Fragment 3: A Japanese guy - me crawling around.


August 14, 2008

Fragment 1: Swollen tongue, hospital

Fragment 2: A tracker

Fragment 3: Shower/bathroom dream(s)

Fragment 4 (with 3?): Bathrooms - I couldn't pee (shy bladder).


August 15, 2008

Keywords: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, 1827 (Hibari x Tsuna)

Note: VERY weird, because I don't really care for HibaTsuna). Wish I could remember what happened in it though. XP

Keywords: Field trip. Lee (or Leigh?), cow epidemic, some scribbles I can't read *squint*, I-spy game (porcelain), Nikki, my partner - "forever partner".


August 17, 2008

Fragment Keywords: Vehicle, mom (bad driving) & me, yarn

Keyword: Eroica (from From Eroica With Love)

Fragment 2: Some kind of mode of transportation and a secret place - I got to it and stole an object. Someone came, and I think they beat me up. Also, I think I was a guy.


August 18, 2008

Fragment Keywords: A part, Sarah chatting with two people, one with a _?_ _?_.

Fragment 2: Guys and girls making out.

Fragment 3: A cat, dogs, weird shit.

August 04, 2008

Me and others were being led through this very secret place. At one point we were led down some stairs, were three ninja type people were guarding (wearing more fancy type clothes). I asked the first one (who's garbed all in black) permission to pass. They didn't answer, just stared at me with one eye showing. They may all have been Asian.

At one point I/we were in a room with a (scientist) guy who looked like Daniel Jackson from Stargate SG-1.


August 05, 2008

Keywords: Guy - main character, woman (blonde-brown, frizzy hair), a boy (black hair)

Keywords 2: Snake

Dream: I'm typing something up but I accidentally submit it before I'm finished. I can't edit it because it's Fanfiction.Net. 


August 06, 2008

Fragment: Hiding in a house/outside.

Keywords: Melissa (my aunt), me, Rachel, bunch of money and a wallet, some kind of songs

Keywords 2: A bee

Fragment 2: Making some type of craft(s).

Keywords 3: Orochimaru, Jiraiya (from Naruto)


August 08, 2008

Fragment: I'm at some kind of little gathering, I think, and there are artificial intelligence cats wandering around. One's name is Yamato and another's is の (Japanese word "no" which means apostrophe 's basically - I wondered if there was a name before it indicating ownership but can't remember).

Conrad is locked up in a part of the building - it seems he's some kind of bad guy in this dream, because we let out these pink wisps that are bad. I think I went to the room he was in and tried to help him.

Keywords: Shino, Kiba (from Naruto)


August 09, 2008

Keyword 1: The __?__ > Jellyfish

Keyword 2: School

Dream Fragment 1: Reina-chan (youngest daughter), another daughter and a couple of sons.

Dream Fragment 2: "At least Doumeki was(n't?) dead blah blah etc.", Keyword: enemies

Dream Fragment 3: Like FFT(did I mean Final Fantasy 10?) attack/battle.


August 10, 2008

Dream Fragment: Naked Sims (The Sims 2)

Note: I think was when I was thinking about how to get Sims to show their parts.

August 03, 2008

Heading for the Highway, Looking for Disaster

1 p.m.

Me and mom were at Wal Mart and were about to leave. Only, we weren't in the parking lot, but off to the right of it, where I think the garden area is at the Wal Mart here. There were two - cars mom's old red one, and dad's current white one. Mom said she'd come back for the other one and that I could stay with her.

However, I stayed with mom's car, the one that was left. When she left, I decided - "why wait?", and I drove her car and headed home. I was sitting on the passanger side though, and had a bit of a panic trying to use the gas and break pedals... Like my other car dreams, I had some funky crash experiences. Also, time was warped, seeming to go on forever. It doesn't take near as long as it did in the dream to get home from Wal Mart in real life. At one point, it was dark (and I remember wondering why mom would want to go back for the car if it was goig to bed so late). I was also warped somehow - like I was on some kind of drug. I remember passing up either Ball State (here in IN) or TTU (in TN), and I was very worried about running into someone. I thought about stopping, but didn't know how or something. I eventually (almost over halfway home) crashed off to the side of the road, and a tow truck towed me home. It was like in fast forward - at one point the driver stopped at Lee's to eat, but I didn't have anything. I was too busy worrying about how mom was going to react when we got home. I woke just before we got there.

Um, wut? Another Naruto and stealing dream?

Am I trying to tell myself...something? o_o;

Also, towels. Warm, big, fluffy towels...

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August 02, 2008

Watch
 
Involved three guy characters from Naruto. I think one of them was Sasuke, maybe the other two were Neji and Shino. I get the feeling there's missing fragments here, but next thing is that we stole some...towels. It was in a store, and one of the towels was dark and hawaiin like. We walked away as police were arriving. We had two light blue cars side by side and escaped in those. Oddly enough, I remember that our cars made up one word over the top when pressed together. I can't get the word "Idiot" out of my head when I think of what it said, so it might have been that.

A couple smidges I remember are: One of the boys cooped up in a house/hut. A man none of us liked. Swimming at some type of resort.

At the end of the dream, one of the boys said to the other, "Watch." At the end of their conversation.

I am being a bad girl. I do want to get better at dream recall, and I was really getting there. I am definitely still dreaming plenty, but when I wake up I forget that it wasn't real - so I don't place much importance on remembering them, because they 'really happened so of course I remember'. It's really weird and annoying, and I know it's because of my current sleeping habits. The bad sleeping came from a sudden burst of motivation to write, which doesn't happen often. It seems I write a lot more when I do it straight through, so there for a few days I didn't sleep until about 6 a.m. I've been stuck on that schedule even after I got a lot of the writing out of my system...

So basically, most of what's below is pieces and scribbles of dreams that I managed to remember or make out because I was too tired to write properly. >_<

___ = Can't read what I wrote down in my offline journal

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July 15, 2008

Dream 1 Subject: Mirage of Blaze

Fragment Keywords: Beth, suicide, ___

Fragment: Singing a Japanese song

Notes: Beth is from my old school, along with my friend Leigh.

July 16, 2008

Fragment Keywords: stole, Doctor Who, animal keychains, store, P, ___

Dream: I can't remember much, just that me and the Doctor were standing on the bottom shelves at a store looking through things of keychain animals and taking certain ones. This is another example of me doing something immoral in a dream - stealing.

July 18, 2008

Dream 1 Subject: Snakes (another one...)

Dream 2: Some type of disaster - tornado (this is another example of my disaster/possible tornado dreams)? A little boy (somewhere between 6-10) runs back into a house to find his friend (a girl). His parents call out to him.

July 19, 2008

Dream: Katrina was my school teacher. We (the class) called her "Miss Katrina". I had two workbooks and I lent one to Anda because the owner of the spare one I had died. The spare workbook kept making a sound like one of those gift cards with music. It was going "Ciaossu" like Reborn. I went over and turned it off. I got into a huge fight with the teacher, telling her that she taunted me. I ran out and left in a car. I remember walking by a boy and adult. I was on the verge of crying.

Notes: Katrina is my aunt. Anda went to my old school.

July 22, 2008

Dream Subject: Probably Naruto.

July 24, 2008

Dream Subject: Naruto again.

Fragment: A library, one book titled started with F and was two words, and was the third book in a series.

Fragment: Jacob, other people there in some kind of house for a vacation/get-away.

Note: Jacob is my old crush from my old school. I dream a lot about school for some reason considering it was so long ago and my memory sucks.

July 28?, 2008

Fragment: Sara got hurt/lost memories.

Had this one before?

Note: Not sure if I wrote that last line for the fragment or I remember that I had another dream that I might have had before.

July 29, 2008

Fragment: ___ out of floor, spoke aloud.

Dream Subject: Naruto: Neji, Shikamaru?, Tsunade

July 30, 2008

Fragment: I was with Conrad and I don't know if he let me in or I went in anyway, but there was this large field with these huuuge dogs in it (not as big as Sesshoumaru in dog form, think time skip Akamaru but maybe a little bigger). The field was a secret.

Note: Conrad is my online friend I mentioned in my earlier Ragnarok Online dream.

Fragment Keywords: Website with vids and music (lol wonder if I was dreaming of YouTube).

Dream Subject: Other Naruto dreams

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 Oh, but some good news is that mom handed over the recorder. It just needs batteries.

To Self: Less 'things form the past' dreams, more underwater excursions and adventure type dreams. Please and thanks.

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July 14, 2008

Fragment 1: I either had three choices, or three chapters/episodes/something of yaoi (possibly Mirage of Blaze - I've been reading the light novels) instead of something else.

11:32 a.m.+

Dream 1: Strange Affair

I was on a bus with other people. My dad was in the seat in front of me. At some point I helped some little kids put their shoes back on.

A woman came up to me as she was getting of the bus, asking if I had anything she could put in her bras. I told her I didn't, and that nobody would/should be looking at her breasts anyway (heh, naive dream self?). I remember thinking that it didn't matter if she had small or no breasts, it shouldn't matter. She was a pretty woman, had shoulder-length blond-hair. She got balled up newspaper from someone to use.

Now here are some bits that I don't know where they fit...

My and my sister were sitting on a bed in a small room, possibly in a trailer. We were both very upset because my dad was now with the woman from the bus (I don't know where my mom was). At one point we screamed in frustration and I think dad came to check in on us. He wasn't himself (he didn't seem to care that we were upset), which made it worse.

At some point on the bus, I watched dad and he looked upset and seemed to be thinking about something. I knew it was mom, and I wondered why he and mom weren't together anymore.

I was making upset/angry faces at him when he looked away, and tried to act normal when he looked towards me. Someone a few rows back and to the right (I was on the left, two or three rows behind the driver) was watching me.

I recorded that Uncle Tim was the cause of dad's change (my dad is known for acting like Tim when he comes around, and me and mom don't like it because Tim's crude sometimes) but it was only a feeling I think that it was him as the cause. Listening to it, I sound pretty upset in the recordings.

Note: Dad did have an affair once, and it was awful. Maybe it's my subconscious poking at it, like the thing with Leigh and such.

Dream 2: Escape

I was at my old school friend Leigh's house (in Tennessee) and I wanted to go home. I was going to ride home, but for some reason Leigh wouldn't let me or something. So I said I'd walk home, and despite her protests I started walking.

I walked a little ways, rounded a corner and found myself at the entrance to where I currently live, a trailer park.

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Okay, I asked mom about her tape recorder. She hasn't used it since college, so it could be anywhere. Hope she can find it, I can find an empty tape, and the playback (even with me mumbling in to it) will sound okay.

Well, the phone record method seems to be working, though I have to make sure I talk loud enough or the hold the phone closer, and that I don't talk too long or I get cut off.

I wonder if my mom still has that tape recorder she used in college...

Recording works better than writing it down because my thoughts run faster than my hand can keep up, so most of the time I just scribbled down keywords, thinking I'd remember what they meant when I woke up.

I was sadly mistaken. But with recording, I can quickly say all I remember and then go back and add stuff if I remember more (which I usually do because saying it aloud seems to help a lot for some reason).

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Unknown Date

Dream 1 triggered remembrance of a dream or dreams I've had before about driving. In the dream(s), I could drive, but not very well. I still drove places.

Note: Don't drive in real life. Yet. The pressure to learn is always high, though.

July 13, 2008

9: 11 a.m.

Dream 1: Wild Ride

Me and a girl (who kind of reminds of a girl named Stacey from my old school) were getting in my mom's red van to go somewhere. I wanted to drive, but ended up letting her drive. She was doing pretty good and was a better driver than I am, but there was some issues.

For instance, we got to this really slim drive around like...a mountain. Very curvy. She was going too fast, and I told her that my mom told me about these and how you're supposed to drive slowly. We did these weird spins around it, and I guess we made it.

Only, we did crash after that into some trees and woods. Me and the girl, who was then somehow my sister, Rachel (notoriously somewhat bad driver), tumbled out of the van somehow and into the woods. I rolled a bit down a hill, but Rachel fell in between these cracks into a small cavern type thing. I immediately called for help because I didn't know how to get down, but there was only a lady walking towards the accident, chattering on her cellphone.

She did apparently here my cries because, still on the phone, she walked down into the woods and suddenly there was a path to Rachel to go through. The woman walked inside, and me and my sister both said at the same time, "She is so going to die." Rachel got out, and I heard the eeriest sound from the cave. Every time I think about it, I get this image of a rotting zombie woman dragging herself around the cave. Surprisingly, the woman got out as well, cellphone forgotten as she ran screaming.

As Rachel was coming out of the cave, I remember asking her if she wanted me to get the stuff that'd fallen out with us. She said yes. One thing was a jug of something, like laundry soap. It had a pink cap, and nearby were sold old ones warped into a different shape and not ours. I looked over and there was also an afghan blanket that could only have been crocheted by my mother or one of the ones we had in the living room.

Before we left, we turned to each other and Rachel said, "I won't tell anyone about your fear of ________ (I think there was more than one thing in there) if you don't tell anyone about what just happened."

I agreed, and we left.

Note: Yeah, I don't remember what Rachel said I was afraid. I think it was too weird, and I distinctly remember the word 'court'.

Dream 2: Gone Skating: Terrors in the Dark

11: 37 a.m.

There was a skating competition, but there was only me and another girl there, and didn't get along (at first). My sister was also there as well as, I think he was, the girl's dad.

What we had to do was jump and spin, and the audience would decide who won (I didn't see any judges). It took place in a small gym, with one side of bleachers with people clumped in the middle.

I think she jumped first. When it was my turn, something distracted me (maybe a man out on the floor?) and I didn't do my best. After that, we (me, the girl, my sis and the girl's dad) went outside to sit around the steps.

I don't know when this part happened, but Rachel and the girl had gone off somewhere. Me, I went inside, straight to the gym and did another jump-spin. A couple of them, actually. The audience cheered a lot.

I think there's a gap in my memory at this point.

Now we're all going back inside, except... there's something wrong! It's pitch dark and no one knows where they're going, particularly the people on skates (including me). Things are buzzing around on the ceiling, and either the people leave now, or they were gone when we went in. There are wasps! Wasps are all over the place, and the people who remain are screaming and running. I run (er, skate) as was well, but all I remember is a small room, and coming out of it to see Rachel in the next room over chatting to my mom (I think) on the computer. We go out together to the gym, and it's possibly light again (even in the dark, I'm able to see in my dreams). My dad is there sitting at a small table, on a laptop (possibly talking to mom too). The wasps are gone, and I remembering saying it was 'okay now' to my sister.

Note: I remember that someone was going on with the girl's dad, but whatever it was eludes me now.

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Damn, those are long. o_o This recording thing must really be helping.

I tried a new method last night. Instead of writing in my bedside DJ, I reached over, grabbed my phone and recorder whatever I remembered (the title already has the date and time in it! so nifty). The bright light shocked my eyeballs the first time, but for the most part, I was able to cover my eyes the next times I used it. Each recording is about 30 seconds each, I haven't listened to them yet. I'm going to transcribe them in a minute.

Last night was my most vivid night of dreaming ever, I think. Sadly, I forgot most everything because I was feeling so sick and exhausted. I think they were long and complicated at well, but most of the details are right on the tip of my tongue...or were at some point.

Anyway, time to do some typing.

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July 05, 2008



Dream 1: Date With Weller Conrad

7:50 a.m.

This took place here in my house and mom was helping me keep track of time for a date after (?) I got ready. My date reminds me of Conrad from Kyou Kara Maou!. Conrad look-alike is worried about being late.

Apparently we were going to go lay down somewhere and dream together (don't know if we wanted to dream share or just dream seperately). I changed my mind about doing it because I didn't want to go back to sleep.

I'm not sure if this is part of the above dream, but: There were a line of cans on the floor, and mom reminded me that I forgot to do something with one of them.

Note: I've had more soda drinks in the house these past weeks than I've ever had, and I've been recycling them and making sure to put more in the fridge when needed, so that's probably why I dreamed about the last part (though I'm surprised I didn't remember to do whatever it was with the can on my own).



Dream 2: Get Well Manga

10: 21 a.m.

Me and mom went to visit someone in the Hospital. They had a yaoi manga in some compartment (above the bed?). It was very strange, because it was liking a computer slideshow of manga...

Fragment 1: Chat room with pink page, a voice.

Fragment 2: Grandma, Melissa, Sara? Mom? Me, a store.


July 06, 2008

Dream 1: Dangerous Breathing Technique

5:30 a.m.

There was a woman underwater, using some kind of method for breathing in it. A man protested at some point. The two might have been related.

Might be part of above dream: There was something with New Zealand on it, and I think was there other stuff that had writing on it.



Dream 2: Prisoners of Baphomet

9:40 a.m.

*shock* I remember this one (mostly). That's very good, because I only have some keywords written down.

Keywords: Island, Baphomet, prisoners, book, letter

There was this island in the middle of nowhere, secret from the outside world. Select few knew about it.

There's a woman on the shore looking out at the water. Suddenly, a Baphomet's horns and upper face bob out of the water (it looked a lot like the Baphomet in Ragnarok Online except the horns of the one in my dream were lots bigger, as well as the Bapho being bigger), and it keeps doing that for a few minutes. The water is darkish blue (kind of navy) and looks fake, like on a play stage.

The other part on the island had something to do with prisoners, and a little building on the west side of the island. Inside were books and stuff, and I looked in one and there was a letter. I don't remember what was inside of it - maybe that's how I knew about the prisoners, because it was about them? I think there was a guy inside the building...

Fragment: A guy said to me, "You told me you were dangerous."

I believe he told me this after I did something, well...dangerous. And I do remember telling him I'm dangerous, though I don't know why.

July 07, 2008



Dream 1: I'm Ugly and a Failure!

Like Jensen Ackles in the bulimic fic.

Notes: That's all I wrote and all I remember. In the fic (which I'd just read), Jensen put on a mask, but was actually bulimic and thought of himself as ugly and a failure because of something that happened in his past. Jared was the only one to really get past the mask and get him started on the road to recovery.

Dream 2: Finding the Key to Eternal Life

7:39 a.m.

Like (season 3) episode 15 of Supernatural (research).

Notes: I'm thinking I was talking about the Alchemy research for eternal life. I'd just watched the episode.


(the snake in my dream was longer, greener, less scaly and had a smaller head and longer, thin tail)

Dream 3: Two Outlaws and a Baby (Who Went Back In Time)

10: 40 a.m.

Oh, I remember this nightmare.

Me and my sister, Rachel are trying to get home. Every time I remember that bit I think of our old house on Renee Lane in Tennessee, but whatever.

The setting was a really sandy, almost desert type place. I don't remember what happened before this, but I believe a woman gave us a strong gray-ish (like ash) colored wicker basket.  I reached down inside and felt something weird, so I looked down. There was a green snake coiled up in it. At this point, I don't know where Rachel went. I reached in and took it out, putting it on the ground. Every time I'd back away, it would lunch forward and spit venom at me. When I'd move forward, it would back away. It was very much like a magnet deal.

So somehow I manage to get the snake back in the basket or something, and me and Rachel go to this guy's house looking for help. He knows immediately what the snake is and is kind of protective of it. It raps around his arm. We need a map and he gives it to us, but something happens along the lines of him swindling us. I'd had one of his babies in my arms (he had two), its name was Charles. We made a run for it, but just as we got to the car, I realized I still had the baby. I started to run back, but Rachel said to just bring it.

So with the baby, we drove away. At some point we drove between like...two trains? It was weird, and hard to explain.

I wrote down that at some point it was a two hour walk to where we need to go next.

Now, I believe it was at the end, but the dream 'rewinded' to when I was going to take the baby back. This time, I did, running back inside the house to sit the baby down and run out. I think the guy had a gun?

July 08, 2008

Keywords: Doumeki, Watanuki.

Note to Self: Plz jot down more next time so I know what exactly Doumeki and Watanuki did in the dream. kthxbai.

Dream 2: Tarot

9:35 a.m.

Tarot card reading.

I don't remember much more than that besides that it was a long reading and I remember feeling surprised at some of the things said. Wish I could remember at least one of the cards read. :/

July 09, 2008

Dream 1: Help

6: 18 a.m.

Kumohira (?): "All because we need your help."

Keyphrase: Doing something that's needed.

Dream 2:  I've Got a Crush On You

10:30 a.m.

Some kind of pageant. One of the women is called Anna. She reminded me of my old teacher, Mrs. Hastings. She was a little 'loopy' like Luna Lovegood, and she had a crush/feeling for Severus Snape.

There was also something about spying.

July 11, 2008

Keyword: Torchwood

Note: Yes, that's all I wrote. *sniff* I have a feeling it was a really interesting dream, too...

July 12, 2008

Dream 1: Don't Forget

3:22 a.m.

I remember in my dream that I felt really sad that I might not remember any of it when I woke up. I think I was kind pf panicky as well, and definitely had teary eyes. When I woke up, I felt sad and a bit teary.

I couldn't remember anything else when I woke up, unfortunately.

Dream 2: Dream... Dream Journal

5:07 a.m.

This one was a lucid!

I believe it started with me waking up in a living room. I don't think I recognize the house. Mom and dad were in a room to the left. I did the clock RC a bunch of times (I did it before I fell asleep, so I wonder if that had something to do with it?). I did briefly try flying after wondering what to do (wtf I did tried in my first LD and it didn't work either XD).A phone rang inside and I heard mom answer it. I don't think there was anyone on the other end, because mom hung up.

Around this point a few more things happened. I realized I was never going to remember all of it when I woke up, so, hoping it would help, I found a convenient piece of paper on the table and started writing everything that had happened so far. There were four things that happened before the play-fight below, and I couldn't remember the first two things.

At the end of the dream, mom and dad started play-fighting like mad, giggling, laughing, rolling around...even though I was pretty much ignoring them while I wrote everything down, it was awesome. I love seeing them so happy and stuff. In real life, their play-fighting always comes to a end because dad forgot his strength and 'hurts' mom, so they have to stop.

So I woke up, and I couldn't remember the first things on my list...

Note: There was something wrong with my eye at some point - it was like, swollen shut or something. I don't remember when or anything, but I think because I'm not used to lucids and being able to do whatever I want, I didn't think to will it away. So I just ignored it.

Dream 3: Desperate Times...

Warning: Too Much Information

This one was weird. And desperate.

This may have been part of Dream 2, but I'm inclined to believe it was a whole 'nother lucid.

So in it, I realized I was dreaming. I immediately grasped at the chance and masturbated, knowing I could will away the blood.

Notes: In real life, I'm on my period. I haven't masturbated with my hands (instead of quickly in the shower with the shower head) in...can't remember how long. I was going to yesterday or the day before, but my period started. So I was going to do it in the shower but I felt awful because of cramps and couldn't. So I was pretty desperate before I fell asleep, so it must have carried over in my dream.

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I'm having so many more fandom dreams now, even if they're just brief or the character(s) is brief.

Oh, and I have still been waking up at random times every night when I assume a dream ends. I'm usually able to remember something and write it down. I'm liking it for the most part!

I really need to start typing my entries up the same day I have the dream(s).